Rejection

I'm an actress. When I tried this the first go around, I did not have a huge feeling of support from the person who was supposed to be the most supportive in my life at that time. I gave in to the whole, get a real job thing and let someone crush my dreams. It was easy to let that happen at times when I was told that I was:
 too fat, not fat enough, too female, not feminine enough, too tall, too short, too white, too old, too young, too serious, not serious enough...
With all of that I still wanted to act. I went to New York City with a grassroots dramatics festival and won an "Excellence in Acting" award for my part as "Eve" in The serpent. Sure I was in two other plays for that same festival, but I spent the most time on Eve. I was told by my teacher at the time that I was a "character actress", which to me meant that I wasn't a pretty actress. Now, that's how I took it, but that's not necessarily how it was meant. I am great with characters, yet in the past year plus in Improv, I have done myself a disservice and not done some of my favorite characters on stage.
The remedy to this is to get more stage time. How do I do that? Well, by auditioning. Or taking more classes. *sigh* Ever feel like there are only so many classes that you can take before you just need to start putting into practice what you have been learning?
I just got another rejection from an audition, frustrating? yes. However, I've already learned that before you audition for something, maybe you should check out what it is that they are looking for. DUH right?
I was just watching a movie with some friends and part of what they talked about in this movie was the fact that you at least TRY to do what YOU want to be doing. TO make a choice. Sometimes, and eventually you will make a choice that will get you to where or what you want to be doing. Other times, you will be rejected. With that rejection, you have more choices- keep trying or give up. I'm going to choose to keep trying. Rejection is just part of figuring out what is a good fit for both parties at a particular time and place. I just haven't found the right place and time yet... I'll keep working on it because whether or not you think that my dreams may be LOFTY, they are my dreams, and I'm not going to let you take them away from me again. SO excuse me while I spend some time getting ready for my next audition... and then my next one, and so on, and so on...